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2009
films, books, and music

Today is the day we leave for California. :o We're going to switch planes at Las Vegas (o.o) and then we'll fly to San Francisco, where my dad's colleague will pick us up and take us to our hotel. Right now, I'm procrastinating on packing and trying not to think about the three chapters I have to outline over the break (thank you, Ms. Dyer). I'm not sure if I'll get any interweb access during the trip, so I'm wishing everyone a very happy and politically correct Happy Holidays. ^^

Happy Birthday Cath (aka timetraveled)! I hope uni's going ok C:

I had a conversation with my mom about homecoming this morning, coming back from yet another morning practice. Somehow, my neglecting to go to social events such as homecoming is a bad, bad thing, because social events are going to be an integral part of my life after high school. Hm. I wasn't really convinced. Dances are just not my ideal way of having fun. My friend Kathryn isn't going either, and she's the person I'd most likely enjoy myself with.

This week has been better than most, actually. School's tolerable. We got our progress reports and I got all A's, which I was thankful for. I realized I failed miserably at being social when I tried to make conversation with my AP World History group and ending up having a slight altercation with one person who took it the wrong way. I think I need to get more exposed to things, so as not to embarass myself any further in front of my peers. At long lunch, the group I normally sit with completely ignored us and didn't bother to make space for me, Kathryn, and Aileen, so we sat off to the side. It was nothing surprising, since they close us off when we're not being entertaining or not purposely drawing attention to ourselves. Being ignored's never a good feeling, but then I reminded myself that I'd probably be making more than them in five years or less.

But enough of my antagonizing--I've been a horrible LJ friend. I apologize for not replying or commenting on your entries. I've only been reading them, but just so you guys know, I'm still out here and I'll still try to communicate more often.

 

There was this Chemistry project that had been bugging me ever since I had gotten it on the first day of school. And I thought and thought and thought and just couldn't puzzle it out. I'm not a logical person who understands how machines and mechanics and all that work. So I began to stress out about it; everyone had a partner, but I didn't, I was at a disadvantage, I didn't have the right tools, the right idea, the right brain. I felt incredibly discouraged because I couldn't get it. I felt stupid.

And then, five minutes, at 10:30 at night, I get it. It's like a revelation. I seriously think God had a hand in this. I literally prayed for help in this Chemistry project.

I don't know what I've done to deserve this, but thank you.